The luminous moments
Every life is braided with luminous moments.
John O’ Donohue
Corona has humbled, slowed down, and uncomfortably awakened me to the reality that I am not in control here. The vulnerability is real. I feel it poignantly in my body and my spirit. My adventurous wings have been cut, and there is no clear indication when it will be safe to resume flight. In the holy pause, I am testing the invisible fibers of faith designed to hold me together. I am praying that God would speak clear, deep and gentle words of hope into my center. Holding on to my faith and sunny, hopeful disposition has been a challenge in this season. I had no idea it was possible to experience an entire alphabet of emotions in one day. Recently I shared with a friend that I feel like a little sailboat that leaves her harbor each day for a junket on the sea. No day is alike. Monday it might be smooth sailing. I’m confident, content, grateful and dreaming of what will come next when all this is over. The very next day, I can be knocked sideways by a weather forecast that spells doom and gloom. My boat can metaphorically take on water. Fear, anger, grief and worry can sink my day.
The reality is we do not have control over Corona regarding it’s strength, impact and longevity. But we do have great agency when it comes to how well and often we love, embody hope, and pray. We have to pay attention to the “luminous” moments that are occurring all around us. This is what will see us through, even mark this time as sacred. I love what Annie Dillard said, “Beauty and grace are performed whether or not we will or sense it. The least we can do is try to be there.”
In this spirit, I have recorded a couple of prayers for you to listen to this week. I hope they will bring you peace and remind you to lean into love and make room for grace to do its redemptive work in and all around you!
Live in Hope!